I have a test in less than 12 hours. Have I studied for it? Prepared? No. That's ok though, senioritis (inflammation of the senior) has set in, rendering me complacent and absolutely apathetic. I began the semester with a strong will to complete every task ahead of me to the absolute best of my ability. Over the past month, that has meant waking up with the sun and reading over statistical analyses, and going to bed late while reading about the Earth's general composition. I have read text books diligently, spent whole weekends making sure every paper was perfect. Alas, here I am, my resolve crumpling, and diligence gone.
Actually, I am blogging just to avoid the ever beckoning call of my Physics text book, and to perhaps surprise my very miniscule amount of followers by blogging for the first time since my 22nd birthday. Nothing emo, nothing too heart felt, just the truth about what happens to people who have been subjected to far too much education.
For those of you who do not know what's going on in my life, I made my final decision today not to return as an R.A. for what would be my third year in the position and my first year in graduate school. The decision was made after much consideration toward my future education and careful analysis of my reasonings for taking on another year of leadership on a dorm. Do you want the honest truth? I am quite sad that I will be leaving this job that has been an absolute blessing, but I know that something else lies in wait back home. I miss my family, and I'm a little homesick, yes, but I am also aware of the fact that God places certain things into your life, at that time, for a purpose. I believe that on May 15th, 2010, I will have completed the task the Lord gave me.
Anyways, I should actually start studying for that test, or at least go to sleep so I can wake up early to take the test...